Over the past year or so I’ve written at least a hundred or so blogs in my head. In some cases entire paragraphs have been “written” and I’ve taken handfuls of blog worthy photos from so many different big and little adventures we’ve been on. I’ve got a dozen new stories to share from Kai’s Adventures in Mexico City, Tapanti, La Paz, and many more. But at the end of the day, none of these stories have made their way onto the blog. Why?
Well it’s actually really simple, time. I don’t have time to blog much. Sure, I could spend some of the time I take out of my day walking the dogs at the crack of dawn or the little bit of extra time I spend cooking a healthy meal for my family. But when I ask myself, the answer is always no. Those moments of my day are just not worth the sacrifice. Not to mention, the thought of taking time away from my son to blog does not even cross my mind.
I’ve also been very busy… to say the least. We just completed a highly complex and stressful 3,000 mile move, which I had been planning to “document” on this blog and hopefully will recount at some point. Since we’ve moved, its been a process getting settled, fixing our house, buying cars, getting insurance, helping my father find a place, and the list goes on and on and on. Oh and I started back working just a week after the move. Needless to say, any “free” time I do find I dedicate it to spending quality time with my family, especially Kai who is growing like a weed, get some down time, and if life permits I try my best to find 30-45 minutes in my day to go for a run.
I become more and more aware of the concept of time every day. I’ve mentioned it before, but time is the one thing you can’t get back… it is the most precious commodity. Nearly everyday I have these moments when I just wish that I could press “pause” and freeze time to savor all the little nuances and intricacies of being with Kai at each of his stages and phases of growth. Listening to him sing with true passion. Watching him dance, and dancing along with him. Experiencing his excitement over umbrellas and rain coats. Playing in the dirt while planting a new gardenia for our patio together. Painting turtles and trees for his Aunt Kristy and Padrino. Seeing the wonder in his eyes the first time he sees tadpoles. These are moments I can never get back. And that is why I don’t blog much anymore. Maybe someday I will have the time to blog again, but for now I am going to live in the moment and savor these days that I will never get back.
Vive Vivir Project 